Words

“If i could choose to be gay or straight, I think I would have simply chosen to be happy.”

I want you to take a look inside of my mind i can’t promise you you’ll be fine. I myself am afraid to look inside my mind, It’s no good please stay far behind. Do you see it Kids acting one way but afraid to act the other. Do you see it….Do you see that me in the corner that I’m afraid…what I’m afraid of is  that you’ll leave me the second you get, I’m afraid of failing again, of putting they’re all into one thing and getting all the bad consequences. Look deeper than that I don’t get close to anyone because i’m afraid of someone leaving again. I’m still holding onto that 5% chance of hope that it will get better. I’m 16 and already have Hydrocephalus, anxiety and depression. Apart of a community that people seem to not like because it’s different. I’m going to come out thru this piece this is why I need you to listen. Hello my name is alecia and I identify as pansexual and queer, I prefer the term human as wella s being called by my name no pronouns are needed. I have 2 gay cousins and in my opinion they’re not accepted as much as I hope they’d be.This society scares me because me coming out makes me a sinner right? But what about you? I’m not a religious person but correct me if I’m wrong but doesn’t the bible say “14 For if you forgive other people when they sin against you, your heavenly Father will also forgive you.

15 But if you do not forgive others their sins, your Father will not forgive your sins.”

Yes I looked it up. Macklemore said it best, “Still fears what we don’t know And God loves all his children it’s somehow forgotten

But we paraphrase a book written 3, 500 hundred years ago”  the problem that we’re having not is  “kids who are cutting their wrist because of who they choose kiss.” and do you think that’s okay how about this I’ll tell you exactly what my sin is because I think you deserve to know so you can forgive me, just like I forgave you of yours. I am Pansexual with means I’ll date anyone regardless of their gender, and no I am not bisexual rather you like it or not.  there are 3 sexes you have male, female, and intersex. People and yes a lot people are going to say they’re only 2 sexes, Intersex people don’t get to choose what they are so there’s three. They are more than 3 genders and that’s where the word pansexual come from also know as omnisexual. Omni and pan mean all in greek. I could love all no matter your gender or sex. Bi means 2 not three not 4 nor 5 but 2. I have a heart that could love all, If i can even figure out how to stop worrying about being abandoned. Can I say something  about the whole issue of people not wanting their kids to be around gay people because they’ll turn gay, to that I say “don’t let your kids near gay people or they’ll turn gay” Guess I shouldn’t bring them to Starbucks either, they might turn into a  latte” I no longer believe in homophobia you’re just an asshole, so leave everyone alone and let them be happy you only have one life to live make it worth a while.

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